Mid Term Exam

Mid Term Exam starts on 27th Dec to 2nd Jan. Temporarily won't be updating any blogs. i am sorry for that. those blog that i wrote as draft vil be post after my mid term exam. thank you. All the best to those having exam. GAMBATEH!! =)

In Qin's House

due to fri night watching anime until the next morning 7am, i was sleeping like 'PIG' on my beloved bed. hehe.. i slept until 2pm, irwin sms me at 10smth cuz he is coming my house to do something.. sry about that and the thing happen on fri night.

the thing happen here, Qin Qin called me at 2 smth and ask me that i want go her house eat or not cause there is somebody cooking spaghetti. that i just wake up from my dreamland so i like blur blur.. lolx.. i jux say ok then i poof off to her house..

when reach there, i met up wif calvin, qin and a new friend, wei tian. a sweet girl. nice to meet u too. wei tian cooked the spaghetti, qin qin perparing to bake a cheese cake(my favourite). yeah!! and cal was busing frying sausages. The spaghetti was nice de. thank you wei tian.

cal was frying the sausages

after eating, we go play UNO cards.. four of us playing in one room. i dun mean to show off or whatever bcuz i keep winning.. blek.. wei tian is like... HAHAHAA. ^o^

the cheese cake

Qin, Wei Tian and Calvin posting in front of the camera

Qin and Tian takes the cake as drum and play wif it.=)

there is a video i recorded but tian ask me dun put it on the blog cuz later 'mempersiasuikan' so dun put de.

cal went back around 5.30pm, we continue playing after sending calvin.. i kena a new 'pressie' from wei tian.. i kena 'Kuci' in hokkien from Qin and Tian until like mad.. three of us enjoying a lovely time although i kena bully the most.. lalala~~

i let Tian Tian and Qin Qin drive my car.. Tian Tian is like so scared due to long time din drive car three of us headed for dinner around 7smth de in padang near CDK. i met up wif Nixon and his gf. good 2 c u there.

after that, we headed back to Qin Qin house, qin qin drove my car back and tian tian drove my car inside qin qin's house. we really have a wonderful time. Qin Qin let me drove her car one round. 1st time drove her car is like so scared cuz i nvr been driving such a big car before.

we continue playing UNO again. Wei Tian is like winning for the continue 3 rounds while i keep losing.. Wei Tian, i want to change Feng Shui.. we played until almost 11 then wei tian need to go home de so do i.. i kena that thing again in the lift while we heading down to the carpark. XD

i went home after that de. Thank you Wei Tian,Qin Qin and Calvin for everything. I appreciate that.

Konayuki- Remioromen

This is the most sad song i heard. it is from the japanese movie 1 Litre of Tears.

Powdered Snow(English Version)

The season in which the powdered snow dances always passes by

Even if I’m lost in a crowd I can see the same sky

Even though I'm chilled as if I'm being blown by the wind

I don't know anything about you, do I?

And yet, I found you amongst a billion people

There's no (scientific) basis for this, but I believe this with all seriousness

We can't live at the same time without trivial fights

If I can't be honest, then rapture and sorrow are meaningless

Powdered snow, if you paled me white to the heart

Can you share our loneliness?

I pressed my ear against your heart

Going gently, deeply towards where the sound (is coming from)

(That's where) I want to disembark, There, we'll meet once again

I want us to reach rapport but I was the (only) one who touched its surface

The only thing that was holding us together was my hand squeezing yours that was numb with cold

Powdered snow, in front (of us), eternity, too fragilely, becomes a stain upon rough asphalt

Powdered snow, this heart that has transcended time is faltering

And yet, I want to continue to protect you

Powdered snow, if you paled me white to the heart

You would wrap around our loneliness and send it back into the sky

粉雪Konayuki(Japanese Version)

粉雪舞う季節はいつもすれ違い

konayuki mau kisetsu wa itsumo surechigai

人混みに紛れても同じ空見てるのに

hitogomi ni magiretemo onaji sora miteru noni

風に吹かれて 似たように凍えるのに

kaze ni fukarete nita you ni kogoeru noni

僕は君の全てなど知ってはいないだろう

boku wa kimi no subete nado shitte wa inai darou

それでも一億人から君を見つけたよ

soredemo ichioku nin kara kimi wo mitsuketa yo

根拠はないけど本気で思ってるんだ

konkyo wa nai kedo honki de omotterunda

些細な言い合いもなくて同じ時間を生きてなどいけない

sasai na iiai mo nakute onaji jikan wo ikite nado ikenai

素直になれないなら 喜びも悲しみも虚しいだけ

sunao ni narenai nara yorokobi mo kanashimi mo munashii dake

粉雪 ねえ 心まで白く染められたなら

konayuki nee kokoro made shiroku somerareta nara

二人の孤独を分け合う事が出来たのかい

futari no kodoku wo wakeau koto ga dekita no kai ?

僕は君の心に耳を押し当てて

boku wa kimi no kokoro ni mimi wo oshiatete

その声のする方へすっと深くまで

sono koe no suru hou he sutto fukaku made

下りてゆきたい そこでもう一度会おう

orite yukitai soko de mou ichido aou

分かり合いたいなんて 上辺を撫でていたのは僕の方

wakariaitai nante uwabe wo nadeteita no wa boku no hou

君のかじかんだ手も 握りしめることだけで繋がってたのに

kimi no kajikanda te mo nigirishimeru koto dake de tsunagatteta noni

粉雪 ねえ 永遠を前にあまりに脆く

konayuki nee eien wo mae ni amari ni moroku

ざらつくアスファルトの上シミになってゆくよ

zaratsuku asufaruto no ue shimi ni natteyuku yo

粉雪 ねえ 時に頼りなく心は揺れる

konayuki nee toki ni tayori naku kokoro wa yureru

それでも僕は君のこと守り続けたい

soredemo boku wa kimi no koto mamori tsuzuketai

粉雪 ねえ 心まで白く染められたなら

konayuki nee kokoro made shiroku somerareta nara

二人の孤独を包んで空にかえすから

futari no kodoku wo tsutsunde sora ni kaesu kara

My inspiration

I get my inspiration from the ocean. why i say so? @__@
well, i love sitting at beach there enjoying the night view, listen to the ocean sound and wind.
whenever i facing stress or something unhappy, only 4 things i vil do
- go beach n sit there the whole night.
- go gurney and play ' Midnight Maximum Tune 3'
-blogging
-ask my best buddies out

i luv going to beach n sit there for hours. That feeling is so nice. The feeling will be more nice if got a gf company u sit there but sadly i dun have so nvm.. used too de
there maybe people ask why go beach sit, go clubbing better. seriously, i am nt a clubbing kaki, i maybe go there sit n order 1 orange juice? LMAO. i have no problem of going but i just dun really like the environment. nothing much. somemore u need to pay if wan for RM 30smth, waste money.

i am a kind of person who love to enjoy his life without spending a penny from his wallet. i guess.
everytime i sit there,i surely get my inspiration. i dun knw why. maybe i gt connection with the ocean?

maybe was related to my dad? my dad love go to beach and enjoy, i guess i was influenced by him. There is a relationship between my dad, me and the ocean. This secret hardly to tell and i will just only share with the one's i care.

maybe i miss him too much. =(

Bloggers Gathering

Bloggers gathering that held in Paradise Sandy Beach Hotel on 14th dec at 12noon. I was late due to the starwalk in the morning. i reach there around 2pm. i so tired n hungry but i refused to eat de. i scared later i vomit everything if i eat de.

I DUN MEAN TO SAY ANYTHING BAD. THIS IS JUST WHAT I THINK, THATS ALL.

Bloggers gathering should be fun and interesting. This is the first time i went there and i felt most of time i quite bored. Some part are quite interesting such as: the MC making some jokes and play here n there. The most boring part i feel is they should give other ppl to participate and not those ppl they know. if you keep calling those people that you know, i dun think is fair de. should give the chance to other people to express themselves.

what i observe inside the gathering is alwayz the same ppl playing the games. why they not giving the chance to others? for u maybe is fun, but how bout others? maybe they dare not to express themselves.

i met Han Pin( my primary friend), kuen Mun( my disted friend), JJ, Charles, Xherlyn Chong and others.

i poof off around 4pm.

Vegetarian Dinner

Today my mom told me that is a vegetarian dinner in Han Chiang High School at 8pm.. since i have nothing to do at home so i jux go lo. somemore i can save money for my dinner.. hehe.. due to extra ticket, i ask Qin Qin to go too since she almost everyday free at home.

i fetch her around 7.30pm then we head off to the event. mom went early cuz i told her that the event won't start at time so i vil 'slowly' go.. i fetch Qin Qin while my mom fetch my aunt.

the event of the vegetarian dinner

i hav no idea why they putting bellons everywhere.

The entrance ticket photo taken by Qin Qin

our lucky draw tickets.

Menu( enlarge it to see gt what food if u r hungry)

an open stomach appetite.(I dun knw wat lai also)

cutting cake of their 25 years celebration.

ending part.

the whole event ended at 9smth and sadly our table din get any price de.. so unlucky.. nvm la.

i headed home after i drop Qin Qin.

story ends.

The other way round

jux cut the story short.

when i was going with dinner with my mom near the komtar there. my mom suddenly ask me to stop and i was wondering why she ask me to stop the car and she told me she wants to buy 4D. i like quite shock and i like quite for a while then i told my mom that when i was a little kid, u alwayz told me nt to gamble no matter what happen cuz ur luck maybe 50/50 and you are wasting the money u earn. there is a chinese word " 10 times gamble, 9 times lose; dun gamble, you are the winner". i dun really how to translate bt is something like this. now things has turn the other way round, i jux never expected that my mom can ask me to stop the car and let her go buy 4D. i can understand how hard is my mom earn money to raise me up but is totally nt worth it to buy such things like that. is really total waste of money. i dun mean to say my parents but as u know that human are nt perfect, everyone makes mistake and they learn from their mistake. i vil never ever gamble in my life but if among friends like play play, i vil( but no money wan la).hehe

Accident

The story goes like this:

i was in starbucks wif my friend cuz he say want to discuss something with me so i go fetch him and we go starbucks near gurney tower. we talk talk talk and suddenly i heard a 'BOOM' sound then i saw the car flip over..

everyone is like WTH, quickly rush to help and to the rescue.. is malay couple. i saw that girl is so scared n sitting there like kena shock after the rescue.. then the guy is like smoking here n there.. ur car kena accident somemore can smoke ah.. if u say a proton car i can understand but the car is X-Trail. it cost a lot de somemore the malay guy dun care about the car.

an observation that i make to the car and i make my conclusion that is the car accidently bang into the tree and then the whole car jux flip like the foto. i may nt be correct but this is what i think de.

to those who are driving include me, pls drive carefully and dun ever drive after u taken any alcohol.

my new lappy

this is my new lappy that i bought last sun( last day of pc fair).
my new lappy--> Toshiba M300-P4317. it cost me around rm3400
is quite expensive de but i vil take care of it de..
finally i own a lappy dee.. yeah..
although this is nt the brand i wan to buy but many ppl told me that TOSHIBA is a last long brand and it won't easily spoint so i give it a try.

story ends~~

The Past

today morning when i am stil on my lovely bed sleeping, suddenly mom ask wanna go hospital cuz my grandma leg gt prob so she hardly to walk. I like so blur then replied yes..

my mom went wif my aunt to General Hospital to sent my grandma for the check up. i went later.. u knw lar.. GH hospital very slow wan... wait wait n wait.. i din even have my breakfast then i quickly rush to hospital de.

My past is haunt me again, i remembered exactly what happen to my dad when he was lying in the hospital when i saw my grandma lying on the bed for X-Ray. I almost cry out cuz that memory.. It is so suffering and i jux cannot get rid of it from my head.

Guys cry maybe look embarras but i jux cannot resis this feeling.. it haunt me for almost 3 years de but i still cannot forget.. why? i lost my grandpa and grandma(father's side) and this is the only grandma(mother's side) i had and i dun wan to lose her.. i luv her and i treasure her a lot.
this feeling is totally the same when my dad paralysed in hospital. it was so suffering..

my grandma had to stay in hospital for a few dayz.. the doctor said she had to rest her leg for 1 month before she can walk again.. means next year de.. hope my grandma will be ok..

Memories

I been carrying this memory and the scar in my heart for the past 2 years de and going to be 3 years soon..

Today 6th dec is my daddy birthday.. although he has gone to somewhere that is free from pain, miserable world but i still miss him a lot and i want him to be with me here.

I been praying that i can see him once and talk to him in my dreams, every year my birthday, i wish i could see him just for once or maybe twice but that dream never come true.. why?

that time i just never expect that it will happen to me, it was a sudden and i just cannot accept it and forgive myself that why i never treasure the one's i luv earlier. things happen as far as good at the ealier part but the story ended in sadness?

After u gone, i started to become more stronger n continue living my life and i promise myself that i vil treasure those ppl i luv and i am nt going to let their feelings get hurt.

Jealousy

This word 'JEALOUSY' is very familiar to you all right?
today i am going to discuss bout it.

Jealousy alwayz happen between a human being to another. I cannot think what other people thinks but i jux only can make judgement through my observation. there is once, my friend say that y i so miang keep seeing ppl here n there. i like 'HUH? What the crap are u talking about?' maybe i alwayz show my steam steam n blur blur face so ppl taught i am that kind of person gua.

This is my opinion de,


Question
1) why those single ppl jealous to those ppl having bf/gf?
2) why i saw couples that are so leng zai and leng lui but some are nt?
3) why those ppl that already have gf/bf stil wan to see other guys or girls?
4) why those ppl already have bf/gf, they stil like cin cai and dun care about their gf or bf?
5) why some couples giving their virginity to the one's they love?
6) why guys's desire is much more than girls?
7) will long distance relationship last for a couple?
8) why some guys and girls love to play other ppl's feeling?
9) what is the main reason that cause a couple to break off?
10) Single or in a relationship is a better choice?

ANSWER

1) single ppl jealous to those ppl having bf n gf. well, there are a lot of possible answers. maybe those single ppl heven't meet ppl they like yet. maybe they like the person but the person does nt like them? maybe they get rejected by the one's they love? maybe they don't have the courage to tell 'I LOVE YOU' this three words to the one they love? I also jealous those ppl having gf or bf. i feel it was nice to have that LOVE feeling.

2) oh ya, this question appear in my mind when i was making my observation in QB. I saw a lot of couples they all like so yao yeng la, leng zai, leng lui. As i knw, there is sure a lot of girls want to chase leng zai and same for the opposite sex. do they really luv each other or jux wan to show off to their friends ' U SEE LAR, MY GF SO LENG LUI!!' this is one of my friend said to his friend. What is their real intention? i have no idea. for my personal opinion, having a gf is nt a prob but finding a gf that loves u, cares for you are hard to find de. "Love can be found anywhere but not truth love.", agreed? It is so easy to tell a girl that "I LOVE YOU' but what u get is maybe a slap from that girl. maybe? lolx

3) why ppl stil watching other guys or girls although they already have bf and gf? Hmmm, curiousity? maybe is someone they know? maybe the guy wear too handsome and the girl wear too sexy? i think due to this main reason and it attracts a lot of ppl's attention on them. is it so nice to get this kind of attention? i think if girls wear too 'hot' or 'sexy' mostly will become the target of 'COLOUR WOLF'.

4) I luv this question man.. one of my friend is facing this kind of problem. the girl is been a relationship for 4 years de then my friend just know her for 4 months. A lot of rumous,eg the bf like very cin cai wan and doesn't care about her, he even bring her to IC(Internet Cafe) to play.. hardly gt girls go IC n play. somemore the bf after drop her home then go IC and play and dun even care about her. WTH is this kind of bf? Girl's feeling are to be treasure and nt meant to be hurt. As the bf, u should love and take care your gf and nt jux put ur gf aside and let her survive on her own.. so irresponsible bf.. haiz.. To those who are in a relationship, pls treasure those who u luv and try nt to hurt their feeling.

5) This question i been asking a lot of my friends. Sorry guys and girls, i dun mean to ask but i am just curious. i ask my girls friend that how they think about this question, mostly the answer is yes but why de? Giving their 'First Time' to the one's they love can improve the relationship between each other? but what is the consequences? If say u r lucky, then you are safe but does nt mean u r lucky next time. if say bad a bit, u maybe get pregnant if the guys forget to pull the 'emergency break'. u knw what i mean.. too private to say.. if the girl get pregnant, i dun think the girl dare to tell the parents " DADDY, MUMMY!! I AM PREGNANT AND YOU ALL GOING TO GET A GRANDSON!!" i think the parents going to kick the girl out from the door or report police. Girls, pls think carefully to give your "First time" to ur bf and think carefully what will happen if u r unlucky. Guys, i knw guys alwayz curious about sex so do i.. but think wisely before you action.

6) Guys desire are like hundred times than girls.. i am a guy lai de so i share it out here. i knw guys alwayz curious about SEX this word.. when guys see leng lui, some guys they vil start thinking to hav *** with the girl. this is a possible answer. some guys love to see girls with big boobs or big butt, why i was wondering? izzit nice? i hav no idea.. i jux dun like to see this kind of things.. is quite annoying.. i feel. actually nth to see also, the girl is also a human jux wif diff personality. thats all.

7) Yes! A long distance relationship can definitely work as long as both the guys and girls are determined to make it work. It is indeed difficult to keep a long distance relationship going. It's a path laden with more of downs than up, but like they say, true love will not succumb to the pressures of time or distance. The onus is on the couple to make it work. It is of utmost importance that the couple must be committed to each other and ready to sacrifice the joy of seeing each other daily.
Long distance relationship is no different from a proximal relationship in that both require a great deal of work, excellent communication, patience, sacrifice and understanding. But you will have to work extra hard to maintain the communication and to stay focused enough to not let your daily life interfere with your desire to be with the other person. Don't forget them or you can forget the relationship and it will all be over.
A relationship is about trusting and understanding each other as well as respecting each others feelings and opinion on things. Most of the time , loving someone is mistaken to be physical, dont let anyone mislead you. You dont have to get physical or go to bed or give yourself to someone else just to prove you love them. you can prove you love each other by sending each other mails as often as you can and text messages just to make one smile and to make each other feel and know you still love them and care about them. It is also very important to talk about everything that happens and talk about your problems and how you feel on issues. it is very wrong in a long-distance relationship to discuss a problem with a family member of the other or a friend either yours or theirs. Let them be the first to hear things and let it come from you. When you cheat on your partner , and this might sound hard , tell them the truth and break away from the relationship. it may be hard but long distance is trusting, so when you know you cant be true, you might as well not be in it.

8) i was been cheated by a girl. izzit my personality too good? the last sentence she told me is " You are too good and you deserve a better girl than me" am i that good? i dun knw. i just treausre the one's i luv and thats all. i jux do my bf part to care for the gf. although it last jux a few dayz but i really thank you for letting me feel the love again after a period. i alwayz forgive people than go revenge ppl.

9) There are a few reasons for a couple to break off:

a) After a big fight or argument on something.

b) No feeling towards the bf/gf

c) Did something wrong and feel guilty to the bf/gf

d) The bf/gf feel that he/she nt deserve for each other

e) The guy/girl is a playboy/playgirl

f) Parents objection

g) Distance problem

h) Some personal reasons

10) I dun dare to say which wan better cause both got their benefits and weakness.

Single- you got the freedom to do whatever u want without any hesitation but you will feel lonely

Relationship- you got someone to love you and care for you. you got that kind of feeling when u in luv. is hardly to describe.

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Lat word i wanna to say is in this post, i am nt saying anyone bad things or whatever and pls dun ever think that i am yellow minded. i am nt. in this blog, i jux express all my feelings.
' Is just Business, nothing personal ' - Donald Trump

Sickness

Well, these few dayz i been coughing like bloody hell..
Oh gosh.. yesterday night, almost lar.. i cough until i wanna vomit everything out.. T.T
and this morning, my chest suddenly pain. The description is like having thousand of blades poke into my heart. this is bad de..
i think i gt this sickness since the past 2 dayz. really 4896( in hokien). nvm lar.. jux let it be natural.. hope it vil heal by its own.

Friends

Friends? what is the hidden meaning of this word?
Friends should be the one's that care for you, help you when you needed them the most and more.

In my college life, I been observing and making conclusions, what i get is 'Friends wearing FAKE mask.' Why i say so? well, I DUN MEAN TO INSULT ANYONE, THIS IS JUX MY FEELING.
Some friends they treat u very good at the first place like go hang out together, treat you eat or whatever, then they try to ask for your help on this and that. I DUN GIVE A DAMN BOUT IT!!!!!!!!

like a friend of mine, i am staying near to college but ask me to fetch him back to his house in somewhere far from my house. why must me and nt others that stay in ur place?! why you dun wan go learn car and keep playing online games at home?! do you know is a waste of petrol and time fetching you back while i hav more important things to do so. seriously i dun mind fetching you home but i jux hav one condition thats all. i jux want you to treat me like normal and nt some psycho pathetic. i maybe quiet all the time cuz i need someone to talk too but u jux keep quiet there. one more thing, y u cannot be more independent and why must keep relying on others? you already 19 years old de, pls be more mature de.

while some friends are like so damn FAKE!! i cannot tahan.. a friend of mine, pretend to be so good in front of the lecturer but in the other side is like DEVIL. i knw u very good in studying but pls dun show ur double face. i really cannot tahan. you maybe say that i wrong but did you realize that i been making observation all the time? u sure din realize. I maybe some stupid crazy freak to you but ask urself what are you? PLS LA!! go realize urself before judging one's.

Do u know the meaning of LONELINESS?
i been lonely for 19 years and i hope to have a companion or some friends that i can count on. I just want a friend that really understand what i feels and can company me like go hang out , go eat and more. My personality maybe complicated and hardly to express my feelings but i wanted all my friends to knw that, don't think that i am alwayz steam steam and blur blur cuz u nvr know what i am thinking about. "Human being is like a maze, it is hardly to understand."

it is same like love de. ' Love can be found anywhere but not True Love.'

dun wan to talk de, the more i talk the more i get frustrated!! pai seh ah
ends here.